前几天的晚上，好像是周二吧，做了一个梦。梦到她结婚了，邀请我参加婚礼。心里面有一种感觉，这种感觉从出生以来就很少发生，以至于我不清楚是一种什么感觉。很多认识的同学，初中的，高中的都结婚了，我知道这种感觉不是祝福。大学时曾经流泪，心里面出现过这样的感觉。那是因为一个人离家在外，孤孤单单。这两者相通吗？我以为这样的感觉不会再发生在我与她之间，但是却又发生了。
     我不敢说出这种感觉叫什么。

     上大学之后时间一直都不够用。很多事情要做，但来得及做的很少。回想一下，应该是没有一件是做完的，包括考研，灌水除外。
     为什么呢？时间总是紧张得很。但身边的人取得的进步一再提醒自己，时间是足够人去完成他真心诚意想做的事情的，并且有心人会把事情做得很好。
     时间是充裕但不多余的。人有足够的时间来完成生活中的事务（那些重要而紧要的事情——优先级事务）。没有完成这些事务，是因为人没有认识到事务的轻重缓急。其次是没有良好的时间管理和处理事务的技巧。时间是需要管理的，人不能总是处于休闲的状态。还记得高三吗？那些高强度，高密度的训练让时间仿佛都压缩了。处理事务的技巧要学习的，更要锻炼。技巧——熟练运用的技术，只能在锻炼中培养起来。这个锻炼过程可能很短，人会在一瞬间领悟其中窍门；也可能很长，人一辈子都不懂的。除了以上，人没有多余的时间来处理更多的事。一旦把时间花在了优先级事务以外，那么优先级事务就有可能无法完成。这就陷入了主次不分，或者本末倒置的状态。这些状态并不一定很糟糕、很坏，但它们确确实实的阻碍了人们取得更多的成就，甚至是一事无成，终日庸庸碌碌。
     这就像Ballance(一个小游戏)里的SPEED关，这里就是速度的体现。时间是充裕的但没有多余的，每个动作要迅速而准确，没有多余的动作。
     等待是不会有收获的。我等待了四年，没有等来学问，见识，勇气……，结果是越来越胆小，学识长进缓慢。没有多余的时间让我迷茫，时间的紧迫逼迫我寻找出口。没有多余的时间让我等待，时间的底线驱使我不断的奔跑。也许我不一定在奔向我的目标，但我在奔跑，我在成长，我有收获，这胜过等待。终有一日，我要来到我梦想中的群山之巅。

   重装了一次Windows XP，因为之前用的不爽，觉得慢。可是，没想到影响到了Red Hat。使用Linux Rescue无法找回原来的RH系统。可惜了，这个RH我还没有怎么用过，就被我无意中废了。等过些时候，我再把TRH装上。认认真真的学学。
    实在是没有目标，也没有特别兴趣，所以学习Linux的过程总显得干劲不足。脑子很快就倦怠了。难喽～～～难了！

1. Listening enough to care and caring enough to listen.

2. Being a dreamer but not living in a dream world.

3. Saying "It doesn't matter" and meaning it.

4. Being a positive influence in any way possible, to as many as possible, for as
long as I possibly can.

5. Balancing justice with mercy and fairness with commonsense.

6. Being patient and patiently enduring.

7. Earning credibility instead of demanding compliance.

8. Valuing the wisdom of discernment（洞察力）, the danger of pleasure without re
straint, and the joy of victory with integrity（正直诚实）.

9. Being worthy of trust and trusting what's worthwhile.

10. Enjoying all things small and beautiful.

11. Words that heal.
12. Words that help.
13. And words that encourage.

14. Forgiving myself for what I've done and others for what they haven't.

15. Gaining what I desire without losing what I should gain.

16. Maintaining the passion of purpose while avoiding the pit falls of making has
ty decisions with little or no discernment.

17. Watching "You've Got Mail" one more time.

18. Enjoying life for all it holds instead of holding out for all it has yet to b
ecome.

19. Giving praise without demands and encouragement without expectations.

20. Hugs.
21. Healing wounds.
22. And helping people realize their dreams.

23. Knowing when I can, can't and shouldn't.

24. Laughter for the sake of laughter!

25. Leading while not forgetting how to follow.

26. Honoring the honorable and avoiding the painful errors of the disgraceful.

27. Knowing the power of commitment, the rewards of self-discipline and the meani
ng of faith in myself and others.

28. Smiles -- lots of them.

29. Learning as much as I can for as long as I can.

30. Standing for what's right when everything's wrong, and saying "I'm wrong" whe
n something's not right.

31. Letting the music play.

32. Knowing I can and seeking help when I can't.

33. Just doing nothing at just the right time.

34. Filling my mind with all that is excellent, truthful, full of hope, and worth
y of thinking about again.

35. Kisses that say "I love you" more than "I need you."

36. Treasuring ideas for their untapped（未发掘的） potential.

37. Caring.
38. Giving.
39. And having fun.

40. Refusing to believe lies about myself or others regardless of the source -- i
ncluding what I hear from within.

41. Trusting enough to see good in people without blindly trusting in the goodnes
s of all people.

42. Success without self-absorption.

43. Showing I know the difference between keeping the rules and listening with un
derstanding.

44. Winning with dignity.
45. Losing with grace.
46. And learning from both.

47. Believing in all my possibilities -- and yours too!

48. Appreciating the wisdom of maturity and the beauty of childhood.

49. Avoiding the bondage（束缚） of bitterness, the deceit（欺骗） of wealth with
out character, and the vanity of pride without gratefulness.

50. Loving for all I'm worth because in the end it's worth it all.